Issues...

- 7:00 am every morning: The alarm buzzes and I get up from my warm bed, put it off and go back to sleep…

- 8:00 am: The maid knocks the door; I open it and crawl back into my bed for that 5 minute, ever precious sleep.

- 8:10 am: I get up with a jolt, realize that those five minutes have stretched upto ten and I really really need to rush to be in the office at 9:00 am.

- 8:55 am: 5 minutes to go and am tying my shoe laces, shoving my breakfast of fruit into a paper bag and giving instructions to my maid, all simultaneously!!

- 9:00 am: Am in my car and driving like a woman possessed who’s trying to break some kind of record of commuting from DLF to the Bata building, with the heavy morning traffic and the metro work in progress, in 7 minutes flat. And yay!! I do it every time…

- 8:30 pm: Am still at work and trying to figure out how would I ever manage to buy that pair of jeans I so desperately need (have been wearing this one for almost two weeks now, with one in laundry and the other one LOST!! plus umpteen whose fit I don’t like anymore... sigh...)

- 8:35 pm: Realise that I just have to get that jeans, it’s a question of life and death now and I simply cannot wear this anymore. Again my drive takes me to the malls.

- 8:45 pm: Am soo lucky!! The Levis store is open and I manage to grab a pair only to realize that I fit into one size larger than the one am wearing. Hell freezes and I complain to the salesman; he gives me crap like it’s a slim fit and hence the size variation. Although its some consolation but then, what crap!! Give me the fit I already wear but phuleese make me fit into the previous size… I decide to go on a diet. Period.

-9:15 pm: My flatmate joins me and we happily go to the food court and hog on the oohhh so delicious pasta.

Back to point 1: Did any of you try wondering why the hell do I set my alarm for 7.00 am everyday when I have to get up only after 8:00?? Well, every single evening, post dinner I realize how much weight I’ve put on and pledge to go for a run in the morning. But then those sleep devils coax me into that just-a-five-minute sleep and I happily give in to the temptation: yet again!!

Tags and some more..

Well, here I take a tag again to fill that blog vaccum... Somehow lately I haven't been able to think of anything worthy enough of a post so the tag shall have to do. I was tagged by Memyself_n_I and here it goes:

-Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it:I have a tiny scar just above my right eye, got it as a child while playing don't know what.

- What does your phone look like? My phone, well I use a Reliance so don't have much of a choice... Got a Nokia 6265 and now I don't even know why I invested into such an expensive cellphone (according to my standards), hardly use any of its functions!! :(

- What is on the walls of your bedroom? Well nothing at all, I am a minimalist. ;)

- What is your current desktop picture? You all know whats on my PC at work, my laptop has this picture of my best friend and me in Goa!! :D

Will this ever end?? Whewww...

- Do you believe in gay marriage? Totally, its absolutely individual and I respect it.

- What do you want more than anything right now? Leave my current job...just run away!!

- Are your parents still together? Yes.

- Last person who made you cry? Some jerk I don't even want to mention here.

- What is your favorite perfume/cologne? Gucci/ Lacoste

- What are you listening to? Nothing, my office doesn't permit people enjoying their work, though am humming Lemon Tree.. :)

Why am I writing this?? Does it make any difference at all??

- Do you get scared of the dark? Nope, not at all, woudn't survive in Gurgaon otherwise..

- Do you like pain killers? Whaaaa?? Who began this tag anyways?

- If you could eat anything right now, what would it be? Nothing, just had a chocolate, all to myself.. ;)

- Who was the last person who made you mad? This colleague of mine who has a major attitude problem.

- Who was the last person who made you smile? Am mad, at times I smile for no obvious reasons, but well, here I'll give it to S.

- Is someone in love with you? Yep..think so.. ;)

Yay!! I did it!! And now it my turn to do the honours. So the tag goes to Sangfroid, Adi Crazy, Ani and Sreejith plus whoever wants to take it up..Till then!! :)

My feel good factors.

- Reading a good book with a hot chai during rains.
- Driving back home from work after a particulary hectic day...good music, empty roads.
- Hanging out with friends and laughing your lungs out for no apparent reason.
- Having a heart to heart with an old friend after a long time.
- My family laughing at the of stupidest jokes I crack...
- Eating good food at a nice, quiet place, surrounded by people you want to be with.
- Feeling the sun on your face on a cold, winter morning..
- The spitter splatter of rains...
- Being nasty and getting away with things that my male friends can't, just by giving your best smile.
- Those very brief crushes..
- Getting up in the morning, being all ready for work and then bunking it, just for a two hour sleep!!
- Watching my niece and nephews grow up.
- Coming across an old mail, note with memories attached to them..
- Getting goose bumps on watching a very romantic movie.
- Discussing good old college days.
- Freedom...

Am sad... :'(

N moved out today,
Hadn't realised till now how important she was,
Already missing her lots!! :(

The Ball Syndrome!!

Being in the work scene for three years now, I had just heard about female exploitation, but now being on the receiving end, I exactly know what its like…

I am sooo mad at people here!! A series of events in my office made me witness what I just saw in movies or heard from other people. How the “weaker gender” used their feminism to rise at work… Mine is an MNC and primarily comprises of middle-aged men in their late 40s, staying away from home while the top management constitutes of foreigners, again away from their families. Being on the top level plus being a ‘firang” gives them that added advantage of getting away with things on the pretext of being liberal, unlike us Indians…

The first incident happened at this meeting where we presented our collection to one of the senior guys. He is an Italian guy in his late 40s or 50s. He made this female stand on the display table before about thirty people saying that he wanted to see the look of a particular footwear design on the feet. The female was more than happy to oblige and get all the attention even with people passing remarks and spreading their arms and asking her to fall, she was all smiling and laughing… Was that attitude alright or am I the only one who’s seeing things out of proportion??

A few days ago, in another meeting, I took a step behind to give this senior guy space to walk. By chance my shoulder just brushes mildly to the rack behind, “not hurting” me at all. That a****** has the audacity to rub my shoulder…It’s a probability that he’d have thought that I might have hurt myself, but I believe that every girl recognizes a touch, the intention behind it and I felt disgusted. All I could do was shrug his hand and give him the coldest, dirtiest look possible…

Towards the end of it, I am confused. I don’t know whether its the men who suffer from the so called “ball syndrome” to be blamed or the females who do let them take that kind of advantage.. But one thing is for sure, its soon going to be bye-bye time for me (hopefully)!!

Soulmates...

Long time ago I had this discussion with a friend about the concept of "Soulmates"... Although I am not a very romantic person but somewhere I do believe in it, I do believe that once in your lifetime you do find a person whose perfect for you, with all his/her imperfections...

It may be your friend or the one you love or even a person you barely know but you find that strange connection with him/her which exists with nobody else. You find yourself drawn to that person, you may love him or even hate him, you may or may not get to be with him but the connection is almost tangible...the pain of being away unexplainable.

You may not be in touch with that someone for ages, infact never be able to talk at all but the bond exists, in your heart, in your mind...and suprisingly, even that seems enough...

:)

I am sooooo HAPPY...
I am glad that Saturday happened!! :)

My latest wishlist..

I am at work right now and thats the last thing I want to do... So here I end up reading everyone's posts on my blogroll and wishing that:

- I could get a week off, go back home, get pampered, read a lot, sleep, eat good food and not worry about getting back to work the next day.
- Saturday would come sooner, I take an off this time!! :)
- N would find a job in Gurgaon and wouldn't have to move out of the house...
- I get super powers and remember all the figures am supposed to memorise every week... :(
- My boss would begin to like me just a teeni-tiny bit!!
- I could meet my parents.
- Meet all my friends from school (+2) OR college (NIFT/IIT), hang out with them, have fun like the good old days...
- Shop till I die... ;)
- Decide whether I should go for hair straightening or not!!
- Collect money soon enough to buy my Dad that laptop I've been saving up for.
- Both my categories would show sky rocketing profits!! Lol.. I've lost it completely... ;)

Thats it!! Before starting to write this one, I thought I'd have a long list but surprisingly I finished pretty quickly..sigh!! Now I can peacefully get back to work and stop feeling guilty of wasting time!! ;)

Tagging for fun!! :)

Although I am not particulary fond of tags, took up Rajeev's to fill that vacum in blogging. Its simple, easy and fun!! :) Plus, I've had a particularly tensed day at work and blogging seemed approriate to calm my jittery nerves..


This screen shot is that of my PC at work (now you guys can very well imagine how vela I am here!!) ;) I like my desktop uncluttered hence so much of free space..

Anyone willing to take up this tag can, but please let me know, it would be fun taking a peek other spaces too!! :)

The one where Papa came to meet me...

Yesterday turned out to be a delightful one for me. My Dad was in Delhi for work and after much difficulty and a lot of planning we managed to get together yesterday. I've been out for about 8 years now and unfortunately my parents have never visited me once, be it college or the places I have worked at. Its not that they don't care, its plain curcumstances... At times I was too busy with work and then there would be something or the other happening back home. And then I love them for trusting me to take care of myself!!

Anyways, my Dad came home and I showed him around my place, which he did find quite impressive. One feat accomplished as he hates unkept places, is quite finicky about cleaniness ( a trait I've inherited too), and to match his standards of living are kind of an immpossibility, success again.. ;) Papa noticed the lack of television at my place and so now am a proud owner of Sony Wega 21 inches set!! :)

We proceded on to have lunch and for once my brains worked faster than my mouth and I slipped my debit card before the bill came, to the waiter without my Dad noticing. He was so proud that I'd managed to pay a 500 bucks bill, basically treat him that he was smiling ear to ear, the fact that he'd just got me a 10K television set went totally unnoticed...

We can't seem to stop when we begin talking and its always nice of him to take my side when asking for an opinion, even though I am wrong!! :D So after chatting with him, telling him even the tiniest details of my life, and making jelly of my poor Dad's brains, I was duely dropped home as he had to rush back and those few hours with Papa were so much fun... However I bunked work (had promised to be there post lunch) as I was feeling too nostalgic and missing Ma and Papa...

Currently I feel like the most pampered daughter in the world and thinking of how ammazing my parents are, I forget all my blues. Till I have them by my side, all will be fine...

Of Realisations and Insight...

I haven't been able to post anything for sometime now and its getting to me. The work pressure is tremendous and by the end of the day am so drained that can't seem to come up with anything though I do manage to visit and comment on others blogs which is some solace.

Anyways, lots been happening with me, some more realisations, a little more insight... For once I realised what a bad judge of character I was. I know this someone for years and never understood how two faceted he/she was...whats a person without honesty, without integrity enough to stand by what one has done instead of shoving the blame on someone else??

One of my friends/ colleagues pointed out that I came across as an arrogant person, a person with airs about herself on the first meeting. I verified it with a few of my closest friend and they agreed to it which was quite surprising. Yeah, I would say that I am slightly reserved initially, I do have my inhibitions when I first meet someone but they wander off as quickly...Something wrong being a little cautious??

In a jiffy right now, just had to post the above... shit, am so confused!! Better post next time..

Thats it!!

Am at the end of my tether, can't take it anymore..its all goofed up: personally and professionally...

And here I crib again!!

Not a penny less..

Mr. Bully was in a comparitively better mood today..sigh!! (I've begun judging how my day went, by his moods now!!). Anyways, somehow managed to extract information about filling the incentive format and if I manage to do it right, I get richer by a few grands!! Yay!!!!!!!!!!!

Been tagged!!

Here are the rules:

- Players, you must list one fact that is somehow relevant to your life for each letter of their middle name. If you don’t have a middle name, use the middle name you would have liked to have had.
- When you are tagged you need to write your own blog-post containing your own middle name game facts.
- At the end of your blog-post, you need to choose one person for each letter of your middle name to tag.
- Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged.

Got tagged by Ani/ Akanksha and taking a clue from them, this is what I have to pitch in…

Middle name: GOOFER!!

G- “Goofer” that’s what I am. I have to do something mundane out of any task: In kitchen, I drop anything which am holding firmly enough, at work I mess up with digits (interchange them!!) and at home I forget to do the simplest of things..

O- “O” is probably one of my favorite shapes. I find this form very appealing, friendly… It gives me the feeling that its unbiased as it doesn’t point in any direction in particular. (Am I mad??) :P

O- Oohhmmm… an expression I resort to get out of any sticky situations/ to handle various adequate reaction problems/ when I know admitting the truth would be committing suicide.

F- Freedom!! That’s the essence of my life… I need freedom to work, to live, to be…

E- Easy going... I am , totally!!

R- Romantic…just a lil bit!! ;)

Thankfully, Ani and Akanksha tagged me together so I had to do just one… :P. Its actually a little painful writing tags (but if I had to, so will the rest!! mean me..) and I shall pass it on to
- Aparna
- Madhatter
- Sharddha.

The rest have already gone through the ordeal..

A post long overdue..

In college, we were a group of 7 girls and each was a character in her own right.We stuck together all the time and someone even nicknamed us as the “seven sparrows”!! You see one and would be sure that the rest six are somewhere in the vicinity. However, the shining star of our set was (and mind you, still is) “G”. She’s exclusive, the most famous one, our very own social butterfly… Now “G” being all renowned and stuff, had quotes without which the history of our group remains incomplete.

So this one goes to “G”: THE STAR!! :

- Ladkiyon…blah blah.. (That’s how we got addressed as!!).
- I am seriously serious guys… (She’s trying to make a point here..).
- Oye ladki!! (Individual addressing lingo..).
- “Everyone knows “G” in NIFT” (this ones true!!)
- ME: What are you doing?
G: Rangoli bana rahi hoon!! We had this conversation every morning while sitting in adjacent loos in the hostel !! (am soooo dead!!) ;)
- Life sudharo… (Her constant effort at improving our state of minds/ lifestyles, which she thinks is totally distrupted).
- G’s definition of lipstick: “Akal ki Dawayi”!!

I’ve missed quite a few of her quotable quotes but that’s all I could recollect for now. I also know for a fact that I am finished if/ after she gets to read this one but its worth the abusives nonetheless.

P.S: Dedicated to G with contributions from Ap, T and V.

Moving on!!

Quite recently one of my friend's relocated to another city for work and I could hear that excitement, nervousness, wierdness in his voice over the phone...

That reminded me of everytime I had moved to a new place: the butterflies in my stomach and the nervousness I felt which I didn't admit to anyone... But now when I recollect, I realise that it wasn't mere anxiety, it was an anticipation of being in a new place, surrounded by new things/people. There was a strange rush of adrenaline, this feeling of giddiness that overwhelms you only when either you are in love or in a new environment...

Now being in a job where I get to travel quite a bit, I have to confess that its an amazing feeling to absorb new surroundings, learning something new and being with new people... I realise that every place is unique and gives you its typical vibes that makes one like or dislike a place. It takes an instant for me to predict whether I would enjoy being there or not... Right or wrong, its worth the risk for the novelty of it all!! :)

Broken lines...

A tiny stab of dissapointment...
She's losing touch...
The connection is fading...
The clues are vanishing...
.... probably its all for the best!!

Love you Papa..

My Dad spoils me crazy and I love him for it!! ;)

Yeh, I am the youngest of his three daughters and probably the most pampered one (I know each of us think that in our own right!)... At times I feel guilty of merely mentioning of wanting anything to Papa and he getting it for me. Once while talking to my parents I happened to say how spoilt I was and how they got me everything that I asked for... Here's what my dad said:

"Am happy that I am able to give what my children ask for... (shows how basic my demands are!! ;)) It has taken me time to reach here but I have."

And so I continue to give that joy of "giving" to Papa and making him happy!! ;)

P.S: I love my Dad for a lot more things than just spoiling me, but this one feels the best!!

Momentary happiness..

The past week has been hectic even with Mr. Bully (read my boss) not around. But for once I am enjoying the work pressure after coming to this new work place of mine. There's no one to constantly nag me and bully me before the "Big Boss" and I have the freedom to work at my own pace... :)

I am working nearly 12 hours a day and yet having fun... But my days of happiness are short lived, he returns this Saturday!!

Dammit, why do the good times just seem to fly by??

Nostalgia..

On my last visit to home, I was forced by my mother to clean the drawers and cabinets of my study table. It’s a task I hate doing not because I am lazy or messy but because those cabinets are filled with memories that are at times a little painful to relive… Here’s what I found:

- Tons of cards and letters.
- Photographs of visit to the South on my school trip.
- Chocolate covers, loads of them!!
- Dried flowers.
- My slam books.
- Old journals.
- Friendship bands.
- Old test tubes!!
- All sorts of colour mediums- pencils, crayons, oil pastels, sketch pens, spray colours, markers…
- Old art files.
- More chocolate wrappings…
- “Love is...” clippings from newspapers, neatly stacked in an envelope…
- A (unused) diaper and a feeding bottle.
- Scribbled notes and doodles.
- My favorite poem “Daffodils” by William Wordsworth given to me by Ap during college.
- Chewed old pens and pencils.
- Old gift-wrappings.
- Old birthday pictures.
- Clippings of graphics and layouts that interested me back then…
- A copy of Jonathan Livingston Seagull by Richard Bach.
- A pendant.
- Memories…

Rummaging through my cabinets took me down the memory lane and I relived almost a decade, cherished a thousand moments and appreciated all that I had in life: my friends, all those happy and sad times… Am so nostalgic!!

P.S: My cabinets still remain in that state of total chaos.. ;)