Saturday, June 16, 2007

Given Up!!

Life teaches us lessons every now and then, when we least expect it to, when we think that our past is behind us and we are ready to move on…

Most of the times in my life, I’ve pretended to be a very strong person, not bothered by certain circumstances when in reality, all along I’ve been feeling like crap… I haven’t discussed these problems with anyone, believing that I did not need any form of sympathy, that my problems were but mine and mostly because they were a too private part of my being and sharing them would be unfair… However, I didn’t realize that because of this I had alienated myself, separated me from the rest… I had begun to avoid people fearing that the temptation of trusting someone would get to me…

However, after almost an year of trying to be strong, trying to make people believe that I am the cool headed one, trying to laugh at my problems, I give up!!

Now I admit that it hurts when something you’ve wanted most in life doesn’t work out, when the life you’ve imagined for yourself ceases to exist and the worst when you regret being strong only to realize that your not sharing the troubles has distanced yourself from your friends… and you find yourself all alone!!

10 comments:

Sangfroid said...

Cheer Up !!
I believe by writing this post you've already given a small vent to your subdued emotions.

Maybe you could now talk to someone you really trust. I'm sure you'll have a much lighter heart after that :-)

sangfroid said...

Now this is what I call serendipity!!

"Who am I?" is a difficult question to answer. So, I would leave it for sometime else and let curiosity get the better of you for the time being :-)

sangfroid said...

Blog turns into a chat tool :-)

Well what u interpreted is nice but slightly skewed!

But I would not let another lady lie at the mercy of curiosity for long ... I dont know you but having said that u seem like an interesting person to know (with whatever I have read on your blog so far)

Is the stomach-ache easing out :-)

sangfroid said...

Dont die ... just lie
Why do u think I'm sly

Lemme tell u, I do not pretend
On this note I'll end!!

sangfroid said...

Excuse me for the riddle ...

what I meant was why are u not open 2 d fact that i stumbled upon your writings by chance ... is it that difficult to digest?

its a small world after all :-)

Anonymous said...

Believe me u are never alone...n we'll b there when ever u want us.N as u can see there is always som1 u can trust...n that someone wil b better than u expected, believe me

sangfroid said...

:-)

sangfroid said...

Those are quite a few comments to an otherwise non-existent post :-)

btw, ur on my blog-roll now!

sangfroid said...

yea ... certainly m not "Down n Out" anymore :-)

mad hatter said...

friends are always there dear..u just have to reach out...