Nostalgia, fear and hurt- the unbeatable trio..

• So there were no "miss you's" this time when everyone in the family met. No texts or phone calls saying that I should have been there or how the fun was halved without my presence. I guess I am beginning to fade into that ambiguity with even my family now and that hurts terribly
• On that drive back I did think of him. We were talking about the old days in school, of friends and old times and there was this tangible urge to reinstate contact- friendships like such are hard to come by
• The idea of having a kid scares and excites me at the same time. I would like to think that I am ready for it but every time I think of the strings that will tie me down with the responsibility, I freak out 
• Am super scared of what life has for me in store, it is just so hazy at the moment
• I've put on weight and its disgusting. So it's bald and fat currently- need I ask for more